But You're Still Standing.

Life is an interesting thing.
I guess I've been thinking about it a lot lately.
With everything that is going on, and with the new years.
2008 was a good year. Much better than the last few years have been.
And I'd like to say I have high hopes for 2009, but I'm afraid of jinxing it, I guess.

I didn't really accomplish my goals from last year.
Which is sad, because I didn't have very many.
But I feel like I grew up and changed for the better.
So maybe those goals don't really mean that much.
I'm only making a few goals for this year.
Ones that I feel like I can accomplish.
And hopefully I will. We'll just have to see what happens.

Today was nice. A fun New Years Eve.
Eric and I ran some errands in town.
And went to the mall. I got my skinny jeans at Pacsun.
We went out to eat at Taco Bueno.
And came home and fed.
Sheik's nose is looking a ton better.
Which is great. I was really worried about him.
And we watched Journey To The Center Of The Earth.
Which, well, it failed.
Now I'm sitting here watching TV.
Bringing in the New Years by myself, basically.
But that's alright. I don't really mind.

Tomorrow will be 2009.
I'm turning eighteen in 2009.
I'm not really ready for that.
But maybe my October I will be.
I hope we don't move.
I hope I have a good year.
And I'm glad we are going out for Chinese tomorrow.

Is this the new year? Or just another night?
Is this the new fear? Or just another fright?
Is this the new tear? Or just another desperation?

The Life That We Knew Is Through

pretty cool weekend.

saturday we went to the base. i got my new cell phone which i totally love. it's awesome. it receives text and it's a lot clearer when talking to people. it came with an accessory pack so i have all those cool stuff too. inculding a double minute card, which is awesome. i also got the fifty dollar card for two bucks with this accessory pack! can't beat that. i also got some bright blue headphones that i loveee. they are so cute. i had gotten new headphones quite recently but they started breaking after a few months...i could only out of one ear...sometimes. yeah, it was time for new ones. i also got blake shelton's new cd, Startin' Fires. which is really great. so far of all those new releases i wanted i've gotten taylor swift 'fearless', david cook 'david cook' and blake shelton 'startin' fires'. they are really awesome.

yesterday eric and dad went to a hockey game...me and mom went to town and out to dinner and stuff.

and today was teen leaders. it was pretty hilarous. we tried to make paper out of recyled paper. hahaha. it didn't work so well though. as jake put it 'it looks like lint!' XDDD and it did. lol. we also talked about a lock-in this coming spring, t-shirts and about how we are going to march in the parade next monday. yay.

eric picked me up afterwards, since dad was at work and mom was feeding. it was pretty cool.

and i'm probably going to the NRHA show this saturday. to a stacey westfall clinic. =]

Nothing To Run From Is Worse Than Something.

well someone was supposed to come look at tango today, but they never showed up. but we have some other people coming to look at him soon. so hopefully one of those will work out.

anyway. my skinny jeans came today. =] and they fit. so that's awesome. they are really cute and the color is really great.

so that's about it. lol. i did a ton of history and science today. and i worked on the guitar some more.

woo.

Don't Fall Down My Concrete Girl

sorry, i haven't posted at all this week. there really hasn't been much to say. but quick recap.

someone came to look at tango on friday. he liked him, but said he didn't have the money or time and would have to pass on him. someone is coming to look at him tomorrow. i'll kind of hate to see him go, but i know it means a new horse that will be better suited with us, and that sheik will fur shure get his training. so it'll all work out for the best. of course.

uh, and i'm not sure if i talked about sheik's nose or not, but it's almost completely healed up. it looks really good. it's not even scaring. =D however the cut on his forehead [it's like four inches long -.- is healed but seems to be leaving a scar. it's a huge scar too. hopefully the hair will grow back, very, very soon. or at least, before spring.

i started learning to the play the guitar again. not sure if i mentioned that or not. i try to spend around an hour a day working on it. i can play seven chords, and have two more chords to learn before i can learn to play a song, going by the book. i need to learn how to play the chords faster, a progression. i've sped up a lot in the last week, but A, D and E are really hard to play fast because i have to completely rearrange all of my fingers for each chord. i'm getting there though. and i finallyfinally got in tune today. i got one of those 'automatic tuner' thingies, which suck, actually. but i actually sat down and spent the time. i only had two strings out of tune, and it did take me quite a while, but i got them. and it sounds a lot better. yayy.

today i didn't do a whole lot. i watched a monk marathon and spent a long time playing on the gutiar. then we went out to dinner at sonic, and we bought ice cream on the way home. i watched cold case and now here i am.

my friend made me an amazing banner.

i completley love it. and robertpattinson<3333.>

ohh, and concrete girl by switchfoot is the most amazing song ever.
seriously.

Whatever.

just. whatever. i'm tired of everything right now.

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there's something 'bout the way, the street looks when it's just rained.

there's a glow off the pavement.

you walk me to the your car. and you know i want to ask you to dance right there.

in the middle of the parking lot, yeahh.

we're driving down the road.

and i wonder if you know.

i'm trying so hard, not to get caught up now.
run your hands through your hair.

absently making me want you.

and i don't know how it gets better than this.

you grab my hand and drag me head first

fearless

and i don't know why but with you i'd dance

in a storm in my best dress

fearless

A Day In L.A And Millions Of Faces

ohh yeahh.

Stuck In A Line

hmm. well i really didn't too much today. we did go to town, and we went out to lunch at taco bell and ran to the store. and i made some more muddy buddies. i played with the puppies and with my sheikers some. but that's really about all. lol. not terribly exciting. so i guess i'll talk about other stuff. lol.

liikkke how much i love writing. i love it. a lot. i love being able to create something that people would want to read after nothing. i like being able to see the words form, and the storyline and characters take shape. i really love writing. i do it for about two hours every night, and i try to do it every single night, even if i have a serious case of writers block. i also have two stories and i go back and forth between them. they are, of course, bright eyes and escape. I really want to finish them. i also have a sequel planned for escape.

ohhh. and tango is sold. or at least, might be. my mom listed him on another site tonight and we got about eight repilies right away. it's a person in texas and they want him for a trail horse. they go camping with their horses and they have four other horses, so it sounds like they know what they are doing. i hope it works out. =]

To Put Motion Inside My Soul

today was funn. i watched loves enduring promise, loves long journey, loves abiding joy, loves unending leagacy, loves unfolding dream. that's about ten hours. XD it was awesome though. i hadn't seen them in a long time, and i hadn't really ever watched all of loves unfolding dream before. it annoys me that they go so far from the books [like willie dying!!!!! that annoys me to NO end] but i tried not to think about that and just enjoy the movies.

annnd between loves long journey and loves abiding joy we went to the store and got pizza and these amazing breadsticks. they were so awesome. at the end of loves unending legacy i ran out and fed sheikers. his nose is looking a lot better, but he's not real big on people touching his nose right now, so i think it still hurts. it looks like it's healing okay though. i hope it doesn't leave a scar.

annd at the very beginning of loves unfolding dream we made muddy buddies. yummmmm. i lovee them. they are amazing. like seriously.

and that was pretty much it. lol. not too exiting but i had fun.

ohhh. and i ordered my skinny jeans. hopefully they come soon and hopefully they will fit.

Movement Inside My Soul

see something new? think something looks a little bit different? hmm, i wonder what that could be. yesss, a new look! and frankly i'm loving it! i think i might keep this one for...a long time. hopefully, i will at least.

so today. ehh. i woke up cold to my mom saying 'you should get up, i turned on the heat, it's warmer in the other room.' so i got up. but it wasn't really any warmer. brrr. it wasn't really a cold day, just really windy with an edge to it. like fall. you know, how it would be in a place that's actually normal. and it's kind of blah, because the leaves have already pretty much fallen and there was only one sort of pretty day. bleh. i do suppose i need to take out my camera soon and take a few pictures. if i can find anything picture worthy.

after that i tried to order my new jeans online but it wouldn't take the debit card and blahblahblah. sooo hopefully if we go to the store tomorrow i'll be able to find them. which would actually be awesome because i would be able to try them on and everything. if i can't find them i'll order them tomorrow night with a credit card.

i did get some cool mail today. first i got my check from the state fair. which really wasn't all that cool because it was only for a dollar. lol. it seems like a waste of paper, and i'm fairly tempted not to cash it all. lol. it seems like such a waste of time to go to the bank to get a dollar, but yeah. my other mail was an invitation to the farmers union dinner this monday. because i won grand champion at the fair. so that's pretty cool. i'm probably going. it's the same night as horse club, but it's like the only meeting i've ever missed so i think it'll be okay. lol.

dad brought home subway for dinner which was awesomeeee. and then we had baked apples for desert.

More Than A Name

bleh. not really been a good mood all day. just things that have been bugging me.

last night at around midnight the power went out. i had just gone to bed and was about to read. luckily i had a flash light.

annnd the power stayed out until 11 this morning. gah. that sucked. it was so boring and woke up really early and got up, cause i didn't know what time it was. lol.

after that i didn't do a whole lot. bleh.

and sheik got his nose all cut up tonight. it's kinda bad. but i think he'll be okay and it wasn't bad enough for stitches.

and i got my pictures from the photorapher finally, so that's cool. i want her to do my senior pictures next summer. or at least to be able to get senior pictures. =p
annd the gray wash skinnies i want are on sale for nine bucks so i was gonna order them tonight but mom never asked dad if i could use his credit card to do it, so i gues i'l be doing it tomorrow. =p

EwNess.

disappointed. i'm highly disappointed in our country, quite honestly. i think people are going to deeply regret this decision and their votes. i dont think people knew what they were voting for and i think they are gonna be surprised when he starts doing all those things that i know he is going to do. i think that people were so into the idea of 'change' and that he was such a great speaker that they didn't care about anything else. well yes, we are gonna get change. but not the change people expected. oh well. at least i can say that i did not and will never support, in anyway shape of form.

and every single county in oklahoma was for john mccain. so at least i can know that the majority of people in my state made the right decision. we also now have a republican in every office in oklahoma except for the governor. so that's pretty sweet as well.

anyway i didn't do a whole lot today. school. i made cookies. did some house work, played with sheik and the puppies. yeah. that was my day.

Of The Deepest Emotion

*sigh* so it's basically no secret to anyone that i am completely for john mccain. i despise obama. well it's probably deeper than that, but yeah. i'm very disappointed that it looks like he will become the next president of the us.

i'm also extremely disappointed in the media. they call it the 'liberal media' for a reason. they still have a ton of states left but they are already 'obama's going to win!' and yes, he probably will, but i think they need to shut up and get in all the results.

oh and i completely garantee you that in the next election [if i'm still living in this country and we haven't suceeded from the union, which would be freaking amazing] i will not be voting for barack obama.

with that said i'm resting in the knowledge that at least i'll have till january before things change.

and hey, it's probably not too late to move out of the country...

The Stars Are Alive They Dance To The Music

tonight was the 4h awards dinner.

i wore my dress and did my hair back with this cool clip that matched it. xD There was a pretty even amount of people that were dressed up and people that weren't at all. so i didn't look out of place which was basically my big fear.

we helped set up and tables and balloons before hand. then the teen leaders sat up at the stage, at a table. i sat with sara and claire and rendi. todd and i had to speak first, and i think i did my part pretty well. i changed up the ending though, because it was like 'so let's celebrate 4h's hundreth year in 4h.' or something like that. which isn't even true, so i did 'so let's celebrate 4h's hundredth year in oklahoma.' it worked much better, i think. after that they said the pledge and everything, and we went down and sat with our families to eat. the dinner was pretty good. it was catered and had kind of a buffet thing.

after that we had to go back up and sit on the stage. we had speaker and then we were all inducted into the teen leaders. we had to say a pledge. then we had more awards. our club won the best club of the year award, and i got to present it, which was cool. =] i got an award in horse for record book.

i got to do first year senior record book award too, and i won one of the two 'best senior record books of the year' which was pretty sweet.

and then i got my hall of fame picture from last year back. i tripped on the chair coming down. XD but it was all good and i stood for pictures with my picture from last year. lol. after that we did hall of fame.

and then it was over. lol. all of us teen leaders [the girls. XD] got a really pretty 4h bracelet and we talked to pam and a few other people for a while before coming home.

it went pretty well, since all of us were new at the awards and everything. it was cool.

How frightening.

well. i completely forgot about daylight savings time till i woke up at 'ten' and realized that my clock was still ahead and it was, in fact, only nine. so i got up earlier than usual. lol. and we had pancakes.

we went to the base. we went to burger king for lunch. it was pretty good, especially the cookie dough pie we had. =D after that we went to the exchange, and did some christmas shopping for my niece and nephew. i wanted to get limbs and branches, jon foreman's new cd but they didn't have it. =[ oh and i added david cook's cd to ones i want. but i think i might wait and ask for it for christmas, along with david archuletta's [why not...?] i also reallyreallyy want a pair of gray skinny jeans for christmas. lol. i guess i'm thinking about christmas now...it's really cool when you go to the store and they have christmas trees and wreaths and toyland set up. it makes you feel very christmasy. so i've starting thinking about what i want to and what i want to get for people.

after that we came home and fed, pretty much. lol. it's getting dark really early.

tomorrow's the 4h dinner. eek. save me now?

Happy November First.

i'm happy it's november. november is a pretty cool month. there's thanksgivings and pumpkin pies and turkeries, stories about pilgrims and just a lot of happiness in the air. things start really cooling down and all the leaves fall. it's the month before christmas, and i don't know, i just really like it. especially this year, for some reason.

anyway, yeah i have a new blog look. i wanted to do something new for november. so yeah, here it is. i like it. i probably won't keep it for long though. lol.

so today was pretty awesome. i got woken up at eight, and couldn't figure out why i was being woken up at eight on a saturday. we went to vote, and then met eric, who was already at work, for lunch. he went back to work and we went to get some horse feed and then we went to the mall. they were having some major sales. i got a pair of black jeans, a black v-neck shirt, a purple v-neck shirt, a green striped tank top and a cute black w/blue plaid jacket all for about thirty dollars. that's pretty awesome. and after that we brought pizza home for dinner.

so...i decided that after this open show next week, i probably won't do any shows other than 4h. at least for a while. it's too competive and though i like doing them with sheik, i think i'd rather focus on doing playdays for a while. they are a lot more fun and a lot less stressful. i don't have to worry about a show outfit, or my tack or whether my horse is clipped and clean and all that. the people are a lot nicer and i just had a ton more fun doing the playdays than i do doing shows. the 4h shows are fun, so i'll still be doing district && state.

[boredom]

gah. so ready for this week to be overrrrr. it's been so boring. so very, very boring. andddd i am SO sick of my world history book it's not fun. i hatehatehate it. and i usually like history. or at least i usually don't mind it. ew.

so i got my 'script' for the 4H banquet. omgomg. it's like, super long and me and todd, who did the whole thing last year with abby [and i thought wasn't in 4h anymore? i don't know, he looked like he was a senior in high school three years ago when i met him.] are opening the whole thing! omgomg. we have this page long thing about the history of birthdays [the theme is the 100th birthday of 4h] blehhh. i seriously hope they don't expect me to memorize all of it. i'm also presenting an award with rendi and another one with paige. it's going to be some night. and i'm just hoping that my dress doesn't look too fancy. i don't want to be the only one all dressed up. blehhh. toomuchstress. i want it to be overrrrr. now.

so i played with my guitar today. yes i'm going to try to be better about it and play for at least a half an hour a day. we'll see how that goes. anyway i can play three chords, A, E and D. i can't do a preggresion yet, i'm way to slow. and my fingers hurt so bad afterwards.

&& my lovely little poneh cut his face. rawr. it's got a three inch cut from his forelock to his eye. buuut he just scraped the hair off, so it's not too bad. i hope it heals up quickly...like before next saturday.

It Froze.

ew. last night we had the first frost of the year. usually that doesn't happen till november, but i guess it is pretty close to november. but still. ehh. it warmed up though, it was probably in the fifties today. which isn't too bad. i guess we probably won't have any more of those ninty degree days anymore. and i guess i won't really miss them. this year wasn't that bad at all though, it never really got that hot. at least no 118 days.

so. aside from the normal stuff [feeding, school, etc] i didn't do a whole lot today. cleaned out the house a little, helped with dinner. and i made fudge. ohh yess, fudgeee. i got one of those awesome kit things that comes with everything and is super easy to make. it's funn too. i like baking, or at least, eating what i bake. XD and then dad surprised us and brought home ice cream, so i had lot's of chocolate today. yum.

so tomorrow i'm gonna feed sheik in the horse trailer, i guess. not really looking forward to this, but ehh. i have to do it if i want to take him to neosha show in two weeks. however, it he can't be that bad after dealing with brandy.

Love Remembers

huh. well i don't want to talk about yesterday, even though that's probably what i should be talking about. =/

so we'll just move on to today...i guess. so we went to town...to subway, for lunch. eric && i ate while mom got her haircut && we went to the mall. i looked all over for shoes, but everything was ugly or expensive. so idk. the dinner and everything is in a week. there's a pair of heels that are pretty cheap and would look good with my dress, but i think it would be just too fancy and look too formal. but i don't really know what else to wear. bleh. i also went to aero and got a new hoodie and a really cute shirt that was on sale.

so right now sheik is out by himself. i would rather him be in with easter, but tango would probably freak out if we put him out alone, so i guess sheikers has to stay turned out by himself. i feel bad for him, he hates being alone. he loves other horses so much and he stops in front of the gate and just stares at the horse trailer like he's waiting for brandy to finally get out of the trailer. he seemed better today, but idk. i wish there was someone i could turn him out with, or better yet that tango wasn't such an idiot about being with other geldings and i could just turn out all three of them. that would be perfect. but i guess there's not much chance of that.

Life Is A Runaway Train You Can't Wait To Jump On.

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RIP Drew, my cute little puppy.

You were way to young, && way to much of a sweetie for this to happen. I'll always love you baby.

Rawr.

so. when you own horses, it's inevitable. you will, for sure, come onto the oh-so-wonderful task of trailering. yes, it's fabulous. i mean what horse wouldn't just loooove to step into a dark four sided box that moves? it's terrifying, really. and just wonderful for the owner spending three hours convincing them that yes, they really DO have to get into the trailer. and that NO, it really isn't going to eat them. and it's a blast showing up three hours late for the vet. -.- ugh, it sounds horrible, but i'm not really all that sad to see brandy go home tomorrow. it's partly knowing that i'm still going to get to see her && ride her often, but we never clicked. with me and sheik it's like we were are perfect for each other. we understand each other, we like being around each other, we just click. and with brandy and me it's not like that. yeah we get along and work pretty well together when i ride her or do stuff with her. but it just doesn't go any further then that. if i go into the pasture she just ignores me unless i go catch her, and i don't know, it's hard to explain. but i think there's one perfect horse for every person, and the rest, even though they are special, they aren't quite the same. and i was lucky enough to find my perfect horse already, and we are going to be together for a very long time [the perks of having a three year old horsehh.]

so yes, in the end we made it to the vet [three hours late] they took her blood for a coggins test, and we brought her home and unloaded her. -.- the wonderful part is that i have to load her again tomorrow, to go the playday. gahh. i'm definitely looking forward to that.

that was basically my entire day, lol. we finally got home at four, and i pretty much had to go right out and feed them, since it was getting dark already. wish me luck for tomorrow.

This Road Never Seemed So Long.

rain. ugh. it poured most of the day, especially while we were out running errands. everytime we went into a store it started pouring just in time for us to be walking in/out. it was also windy and cold. bleh. i don't have a great jacket so it was especially could for me. i was so not prepared for it to decide to get cold all of the sudden like this. bleh. i was enjoying our nice october weather. and i don't really expect it to come back, at this point. i mean it is october, it should be cold. living here has spoiled me so much. i mean just four years ago i was still living in MI and it would have been cold for that last month at least. it would be pratically getting ready to snow by now. i should be grateful that it's been so warm this long. i mean on monday i wore shorts and a tank top and it was so nice and warm. i just wish it hadn't rained. blehh. and mom did say that we could go to areo either this week or next week, for sure, and that'll be cool. i can finally get a warmer coat. yayys.

ohh && yes, a new look. i used a picture that i took this spring, and softened it a bit to make it blurry. the colors are all orginal though, and then i used those as the other colors. i love that picture. =] speaking of which i need to get out there and take some photography pictures again. i haven't taken any in a while.

well that's about all today. it was pretty boring, really. especially with the rain.

You're Every Note, You're Every Word. You're Everything.

so i'm thinking about a new look. i'll probably wait till november to change it, do like a new theme every month sort of thing. that would be pretty sweet. i dont know if i could wait that long. not that i don't love my layout right now, i just like making new ones. i'm not sure what i want for a new look though, so i guess i'll have to think about this for a little while, at least. maybe i'll do a twilight theme or something, in honor of the twilight movie coming out in november. or maybe do something thanksgiving-ish. that could be cool as well. i just don't know.

so, i've been working on my book escape. it's a big part of me, really, since i've been working on it since january. ten months and so many versions/drafts later, i do feel like i'm finally get somewhere. it's amazing reading my first draft now, because i have such a better grasp of the characters and story line now. it's really a hard book to read, because there's so much emotion to capture, and i hope that the reader will catch that emotion. it's a hard task and hopefully i will live up too it. writing is such a strong part of me now. when i'm not writing i'm thinking about the characters and the storyline and what i want to happen next. i would love to be a writer, but i'm afraid that if i had to do it for work, i would loose the joy of it. it's like a line from hope floats 'the american dream. we find something we love and beat it to death trying to figure out how to make more money doing it, until we finally can't remember why we loved it in the first place.' i think that is so true. how many careers do people start out loving and end up despising when it becomes work? i would never want that to happen to my writing.

so today was eh. not much to say really, not much i feel like getting into either. i did go to the extension office to get my 4H picture taken. i hope it turned out good. i guess i'll know november third.

i was thinking about getting a switchfoot hoodie, all the girl ones are only left in 'small.' and that would be too small for me. so i was considering a men's small...but i've been asking around and they all say that it is pretty big. and since it is a lot of money, i think i'm gonna skip on it. i really would love a switchfoot hoodie though. blehh. that would be amazing. i need a hoodie of some sort, at least. the only one i have i don't really care for much anymore, and it's not very warm either.

Since Your Paper Heart Quit Beating

sorry about the lack of posts the last two days. i got home really late and was so tired. back to friday the blazers won! in a shootout, but they still won. that was pretty awesome.

and last night i watched the movie 'august rush'. if you haven't seen it, you need too. it's amazing. i can't explain it, it's just amazing. i loved it. ahh.

today i basically did nothing, so i'm mostly going to talk about what's coming up this week cause i'm pretty excited for most it.

tomorrow is horseclub. nothing too exciting about that, but yeah. and then tuesday i am having my picture taken for 4h...eh, sort of looking forward to this. i don't usually look very good in photos. XD and then there's the whole hair/make-up stuff which sounds like such a blast. eww.

saturday is the last playday, and also my last day with brandy. after the playday she is going home with pam, and staying there. i'm going home with them too, and then to sorgham days and maybe their school carnival.

and i found a horse show! the eighth. yay.

I Was Counting On Forever.

not too much today. we went to town to get an oil change, but their computers were down and wouldn't be up for 2-3 more hours, so we gave up on that. we'll do it someday soon. lol. we got a 12-pack of soda for the horse club clinic this weekend, and we saw a few members from horse club and talked to them for a few minutes, then we went home.

i didn't do much else...i'm feeling much better, my cold is pretty much gone except for a cough. i think the cough is going to linger for quite a while. bleh. i did play with the puppies. they are so freaking adorable. we brought them outside and they were running and hopping and playing with each other. they love people. they crawl all over your lap and cry if you don't pet them. we decided that puppies couldn't get any cuter. it's impossible. especially when they look at you with those cute little eyes and their smooshed little faces. it's amazing.

so that's basically it. lol. tomorrow we are going to the okc blazers season opener. sweet. =]

Life Is Not What I Thought I Was Twenty Four Hours Ago

it rained. all night. pretty hard too. when my 'rents woke me up at seven am [rawr.] it was pouring and it was cold. i had to use my jacket again. last week was the first time i wore it this year and now i'm wearing it all the time! it's supposed to be pretty cold tomorrow too. i need to wash my jacket actually, it probably smells pretty horsey, since i wore it during the playday.

so we stopped at mcdonalds. their sprite machine didn't work. [rawr?] all it did was have some sprite syrup. so i had sprite flavored rootbeer. wonderful. and once we had our hashbrowns [the only decent mcdonalds breakfast] we headed to the base. for the second time this week. we had our i.d. cards redone, since they'd expired. thankfully [and amazingly!] there was no waiting so we got it done right away. and my picture turned out amazing. pretty awesome. after that we went into the exchange, then to aldi, then to khols and finally came home. it was still raining.

the internet was down so we watched some tv and finally went out to dinner to carl's jr. when we came back the internet was back up and i feed the horses and we came in and watched tv.

i got a box from my aunt today. it was a pretty big box, from see's candy, which, fyi is the most amazing candy in the entire world. in this huge box all there was one box of molasses chips! lol. but they are amazing. =] the card said 'happy birthday with sympanthy!' so it was to my mom and me, sympanthy for my great aunt. rip.

tomorrow...nothing is going on. but i'm sleeping in! =D

Seventeen Candles

the candles are purely metaphorical, because i didn't have any candles. lol. but anyway, yes, i am seventeen years old. i've been on this earth for exactly seventeen years. that's a long time, if you think about it. and it's been a long seventeen years. XD i'm happy to be seventeen though. i hope it will be a good year. we'll just have to see though.

so today we went shopping. i was looking for shoes to match my new dress. which was hard. i really want/wanted brown flats, but they only had one pair of brown shoes, and they were heels and i couldn't walk in them to save my life. well actually, not walking in them is saving my life. XD anyway, so i got a pair of white sandals that are really cute and were on sale for five dollars. you can't beat that and they do look really cute with the dress. i also got a pair of beaded tan heels that are really pretty and i haven't wanted for a long time. and i got darius ruckers cd, which i have listened to once. it's pretty great. i like ittt.

i had cheesecake instead of birthday cake. cause i'm weird and don't really like cake. i'd much rather have cheesecake and it tasted great. =]] yay for cheesecake. and everyone sang and all that. i also had a few ecards and phone calls and a lot of facebook comments! lol. so all in all pretty cool birthday. =] i'm also getting taylor swift's new album and blake shelton's new album when they come out in novemeber.

tomorrow we are going to the base...again. to get our id cards redone. how fun.

this is also the four year annivsary of us moving into our house. i remember it pretty well. we had moved here in september and had been living in a camper, four people and three dogs. lol. we were so happy to move into the house and decided to do it on my birthday. lol. anyway, four years is the longest i've ever lived in one place.

Sixteen

i'm a wreck. at least when it comes to medical health this week. blehhh. i'm almost all better cold/cough/stuffy nose wise, but now my ear hurts! ear infection. lucky me. i'm hoping i can treat it at home and not have to go to the doctor. bleh.

today was okay. i didn't feel all that terrfic this morning, but it improved as the day went on. we went to crest foods to get something for dinner, and their computers were down so we were there forever. then we went to the othodontist. we watched bee movie today. lol. when i checked in, the computer said 'birthday countdown; one day!' lol. that was different, but cool. i didn't get any new wires, just new colors and a check up. i got green and purple. and i only have to wear my rubber bands at night. yayy. even though i was pretty much doing that anyway. lolz. that's a secret so, shhhh! and when i was leaving they gave me a birthday card that everyone had signed. aww. afterwards we went to mcdonalds for a chocolate shake and came home. i had just enough time to grab my stuff before heading to teen leaders. which only one other person showed up for. we still got a lot done though, i think.

and tonight was heroes. =]] it's gotten insane. ando? no. =[ i hope he's not really dead, but it does look that way. how could hiro do such a terrible thing? interesting about the last few minutes though! it'll be interesting to see how this plays out...but hopefully it won't get to weird. it's starting to pull a 'lost'. i love lost, but it's confusing enough keeping up with that, i don't need to do it with heroes too.

so. this is my last day as a sixteen year old. forever. pretty scaryy, really. so i figured i'd take a few minutes to talk about it. first of all, i know i've done a lot of maturing this year, mentally and physically. i was looking at pictures from just last year, and i look so different, so much older. i don't look like that little kid anymore. it's partly the hair, but still. XD but just remembering last year, i feel like i've matured a lot since then. sixteen was a good year. i had fun. i didn't do anything all that special, but it was a good year. i think i've passed the worse of the growing older/teenager thing, and am hopefully moving on to bigger and better things/times. we'll just have to see, i guess. =]]

so. my last post as a sixteen year old. =]

And If I Don't Belong Who Would Have Guessed It?

well todayy. it's october 12th. sweet. have i mentioned that october is my favorite month? even though this year doesn't feel much like fall. there's leaves on the ground, but the trees aren't changing colors this year, just turning brown and falling off. disappointing. and it's still pretty warm out too. this week it's going to be in the seventies, which is an improvement, really.

we went out to my birthday dinner tonight. to ihop. it was pretty cool. the food was yummy. i got one of those chicken strip baskets and when the waiter gave me my food on a plate he said 'i couldn't find any of those baskets.' which was random, but a few minutes later we heard him in the kitchen fighting with someone about how they couldn't find them and were supposed to use them or something. eric and i got a very good laugh out of that one. and no one used the dreaded 'b' word, which is a big no-no at dinner. people singing at resturants = not good. dying of embarrassment isn't really how i want to spend my birthday.

after that we went to the mall. and i looked for a dress. and i found one! first dress i looked at. lol. i saw it on the sale rack and knew it was perfect. it's white with brown trim and an empire waist. and it has blue and brown flowers on it. it was dressy enough but still cute and casual and hey, it was on sale! 75 percent off of already marked down prices. you can't beat that. you just can't. and it was my size! i tried it on and came back out so mom and dad could see it. they debated over it for a while, but we couldn't find anything else that wasn't ugly or extremely expensive, and when i had a few people come over and tell me it looked really good on me and that kind of sealed the deal. so a beautiful dress for $17.45. oh yess. because it's brown i have to get shoes [i only have black] but that's okay, since we saved so much on the dress. find a cute pair of brown flats/low heels and i'm good to go! =D

so yeah, that was pretty much today. tomorrow i have the othodontist [ohhh joy] and then teen leaders.

See You Make Your Way Through The Crowd And Say Hello

ooh another 'love story' blog title. go mee.

so. today. i did actually feel pretty good. my cough was terrible, but i survived. and i didn't get home and crash on the sofa exhausted. so woo. all is good.

i didn't find a dress. they didn't really have any and they didn't have any good ones. so that leaves me at square one. but i'm gonna go to penny's tomorrow, probably, and i'll hopefully be able to find something there. -crossesfingers.- we'll just have to see what happens.

tomorrow is my b-day dinner. sweetness. ihop. fruitcrepes. yummers. speaking of food i got my bag of halloween candy. yeah, when i was seven [ooh i remember the right year, go me!] we decided we weren't going to celebrate halloween anymore. it's not just the ghosts and witches and everything, it's how halloween orginated and what it really stands for [besides candy and spending a ton of money on costumes] and we just decided that it wasn't something we wanted to be a part of. however, at the time me and my brother were like 'what about the candy?' so every year we got to pick out our own bag of candy, whatever kind we wanted. we haven't actually done this for a while now, two or three years, i think. but of the blue today dad told me and eric to 'pick out our bag of candy'. hey, who argues with that. i got pumkin peppermint patties. they have orange filling inside. ohh yesss. very awesomeness.

so yeah, that's today. lol.

Baby Just Say Yes. <3

so. well. i didn't do much today, i'm still sick. but feeling much better. so that's nice. i did play with the puppies today. mom and i brought them outside onto the lawn and we just sat out there with them. they are almost four weeks and about the most adorable things you've ever seen. they crawled all over our laps and their mama, susie. we had a blast playing with them and finally we put them back and they all were exhuasted. awws. three of them have names so far. drew, my little brown cutie. he's the leader of the 'pack'. it's adorable. really. then my adorableeee little precious. i might not stick with that name, but for right now it fits. and then tank. he's a hugeee little white puppy. hugee. and so cute. i'll try to get pics of them soon. very soon.

tomorrow we are going to the base. hopefully i'll feel better. i plan on taking some strong cold medicine before hand and bringing tissues. XD i'm gonna do some dress shopping while i'm there. how did this happen? i'll have two wear that dress twice before the end of the year!! once to the 4h end of the year/achivement banquet, since they decided to go all 'dressy' on me. and i have to look good since i'm the outgoing sr. hall of fame and quite possibly about to be the ingoing, as well. and us teen leaders have to present the awards, so yes, lot's of me. and lot's of pictures. going in the paper. i have to look cute. yes. then my dear brother has a thing for his national guard unit, they have a very nice christmas dinner apparently, so i'll get to wear it there as well. so basically that means a very cute dress that i actually like. oh joy. -dies- and omg shoes, let's not even go there. i'm hoping that my black flats or something will work with whatever i get. they probably won't though. bleh. on the upside we'll probably go out to chinese [love!].

sunday we are going out to my bday dinner. ihop, i chose. why? fruit crepe fever! ohhh yesss. yum. we went last year and wanted some, but they were all out! so hopefully we will finally get to have some. and tuesday is my actual bday. yep, seventeen. that's exciting, though, somewhat depressing as well. scary as heck to think this time next year i'll be sitting here preparing for my eighteenth birthday. omg.

speaking of omg [first of all everyone needs to log onto youtube and post a comment, using their 'audio preview' it's hilarous! especially if you type in omg.
and the sourse of my omg.
twilight.

omg. the final trailer was released yesterday. while you are on youtube type in 'final twilight trailer'.

pure love.

it's amazing.

Terrible.

first off...i'm sick. and that sucks. i haven't done anything in two days but i am feeling a bit better, so hopefully i'll be up and about in a few days. hopefully.

so, today was pretty much terrible. I don't really feel like going into details..it's just too hard. so i'll leave it with this rip aunt jaqui and carter.

=[[[

it's not too late, it's never too late.

the farrier came today. had easter and tango's feet done. both of them were really good. even tango.

after they left i rode brandy. i rode her on the lunge line. she doesn't really lunge, but i wanted to be able to pratice sitting her trot and my form and everything, which i can't really do in our pasture, because i'm concentrating on where she's going/stepping, etc. and she got the hang of it really fast. i did a ton of walk/trot work. she doesn't walk in a complete circle, just a half circle. lol, so that was interesting, to say that least. i'm doing much better sitting her trot though, so it was all worth it. i intend to do it again on friday, before the next playday. my goal is be loping confidently by the end of the month, so i need to start working on that.

and heyyy, it's october first! awesomeness. i love october. it's always been my favorite month. maybe because it's my birthday month [14 days until my 17th birthday] but i think i would love it even if it wasn't. i've always loved fall. i love the leaves changing colors, and the smell in the air, the cooler and shorter days. it's all just awesome. I also love how fall is a transition month. next month we will be making pumpkin pies and wearing long sleeve shirts, waitng for thanksgiving. and then december, when things turn really cold and we wait for snow, talk about mistletoe and set up Christmas trees. there's people buying Christmas gifts and brightly colored wrapping paper. all of it's just amazing, i love this time of year. it's the best.

after riding, i went into town to the 4H office and got my state record book back, along with my 4H projects that went to the state fair, and me and rendi worked on our health rocks! project, which we are presenting tomorrow. so we'll see how that goes. i'm a little scared, but not really. at least not yet. i tend not to freak out about things too badly. usually at least. XD

It's A Love Story, Baby, Just Say Yes

YAY for new singles!!

it seems like they all come out right after each other, all within a few days or weeks, so you get to have a whole bunch of favorite new songs all at once...and you get sick of hearing them all at the same time too! xD

however this is even sweeter because all of my favorite new singles are the first off of new albums. =D

so, favorite songs?

she wouldn't be gone - blake shelton.

yayyy! for new blake album. i totally love him, especially his new stuff. it's amazing. he's finally found his nieche and he's amazing. his music is amazing and you call tell he's really feeling what he's singing, which just makes his voice amazing. and yes, i just said amazing four times. that's how awesome he is. i'm not sure when his new album comes out but i'm really excited.

feel that fire - dierks bentley

ahh, dierks. soon - to - be a daddy dierks. i can't wait to see his kid, it's sure to be adorable. i wonder if we will see a change in his music once the baby is born. that tends to happen. anyway, feel that fire is his first single off of his new cd, which comes out in febuary. i can't wait. this is a really amazing song, one of his best i think. his new music [feel that fire and sweet & wild] have just been amzing. his voice is so strong and great, and i think his songs, the writing and everything, have just been great. i can't wait to hear his new album.

love story - taylor swift.

so taylor isn't my favorite artist ever, and at time her teeny bopper fans get on my nerves, but i have to admit i do like her a lot. her songs are so easy to relate too, or in the case of this song, just what i think most girls dream about happening, so it's still easy to relate too. i think that her new cd is going to show a lot of maturity in her, and hopefully be even better than her last. i've heard the song 'fearless' before, which is her title-track and it's got to be one of my favorite ts songs ever, with love story following close behind. fearless comes out in novemeber. can't wait.

limbs and branches - jon foreman

not a song, but a cd coming out in october. can't wait. jon foreman is freaking amazing, and i know his cd will be awesome. i don't see how hating anything jon foreman/switchfoot related is humanly possible. it's just too amazing.

in other news. i watched the season premire of chuck today. really good. i have to admit i really like that show. i think it's sweet that kasey can't kill chuck, and honestly chuck was just freaking awesome in this episode! i loved seeing him save the day at the end. though i thinnk the story line is going to get a little old really fast. in just the first episode it seemed a little tedious, saving the intersect, loosing the intersect, saving it, loosing it, etc. we all know they won't ever kill chuck, but i do hope they make him an agent. we'll see what happens.

The Cullen Llama Song

so.

i did geomtry today. it's better than algebra, but i still hate it. and the further i'm getting into it the more my grade is starting to look just as bad as my alg grade.

ew.

i rode brandy today. she was really great about being saddle and tacked up. i was proud of her. she was pretty good under saddle too. she was pretty lazy and a little barn sour, but still good. i worked on getting her to slow down her trot so it's not so bumpy. i want to be able to work on loping, but i don't feel like i'm confident enough at a trot. i might try some lunge line work tomorrow or wenesday and see if that helps. i really want to move forward and become a better a rider. a more confident rider.

i watched heroes tonight. it was good, though really short. i kind of like sylar turning into a good guy, if he can stay that way. wish i don't really see happening, not for the whole season. so we'll see. i'm not surprised claire's acting like she is, but this has left me with a huge question. WHERE IS WEST? he was such a big part of last season, but ever since noah got shot, he's fallen off of the side of the earth. no mention of him, no nothing. very annoying.

Desperate I've Become

ugh.

to be perfectly honest, things have been 'right' since my brother got home. i mean, things aren't that bad, but suddenly i'm being ignored worse than ever a lot of the time, and eric is perfect and can't do anything wrong. so typical. most people think the youngest child gets all the attention. but that's not true, not in our family, eric gets it. eric's always been the perfect child.

how nice.

i just. urgh.

and worse we gave away oscar and snowball. i want my puppies back. i don't want to keep a new puppy, i want my old puppies back. i loved them, they were perfect. and how cruel is it to give away pups after we've had them for seven months? why couldn't these people just wait a few extra weeks and have one of the new puppies?

loosing brandy and my puppies this soon is not going to be easy.

i really want today to end.

Leave Out All The Rest

Sorry, I have been horrible about updating. I've either been too busy or too bored. I updated the blog look some, trying a new wider template. I may switch back to my old one though, I can't say I'm too happy with it yet. We'll see what happens.

So...I stopped working on Bright Eyes. For the moment, at least. I plan to pick it up, but I just needed a break from it. So instead I went back to working on a book I've been working on since January. Escape. And it's going well. =]

Anyhow. Today. It was fun. We meet Pam, Rendi and Jacob at the shell station and we all went to a playday. We saw Baylee and Becky there too. I brought Brandy and we did poles and the flag race. It was pretty awesome. I had a lot of fun and spent like five and a half hours on her. Needless to say my legs are killing me. And her trot was SO jerky. Ouch. I'm gonna ride her a few times this week and work on getting her to slow down and even out her trot a little. I'm taking her next Saturday too. I'll probably do all three events. Four if they do a novelty race.

When You Feel Like Your Done, And The Darkness Has Won

Super dorkkk. <333

Well let's see...this morning it was raining, lightly, but we feed, and changed and headed to town. We stopped at Wal-Mart briefly. And then onto OKC. It was pouring there, but it was supposed to stop, so we headed to the State Fair anyway. The theme this year was State Fair Live! But I don't see what the 'Live!' attraction was. The only 'big name' person performing there was Miranda Lambert. The others, Graham Colton, Hanson, James Otto...eh. They are all new [or old!] and well, just eh. No one I'm jumping out of my seat to go see. And the other big attraction "high school musical ice tour?" Three words. Oh my gosh. *Bangs head on desk* But anyway. So in the rain we pay to get in, and run for the auto show building; the one closest from the entrance. After that it mostly stopped raining so we walked through the buildings, and ate and such. My candle won a fifth place ribbon, but that's the only thing I saw that placed. Oh well, that's better then the last two years. XD Next year I might actually do some 4H projects. lol. For fair food we had corn dogs and rootbeer snow cones. Corn dogs -greasy. Rootbeer snowcones - amazing. I wanted a fried snickers, but it didn't seem like the best idea for braces. I also saw Fried Garlic Mashed Potatoes On A Stick and well...just no. XD
We also got to meet on the Blazers, Tyler Fleck. Which was cool. Other than that...not much else to say. I am pondering the meaning of 'fair' however.
In my eyes, a fair is a country thing. It's where you show your animals, have your 4H open projects, and have some vendors, perferably a lot of horse/animal product vendors.
The Oklahoma State fair? Not so much. They have a horse and animals shows...but that's about it, in the country department. I find that rather depressing and think I'd rather stick to the AQHA world show....and that one is free anyway.

After that we went out to Arby's for dinner, but we were all pretty full/sick on fairfood, so we took most of it home.

And it was POURING when we came home. And it's still POURING. So much fun for feeding! lol.

So I've spent the evening watching Step Up 2 [LOVE] and Spiderman 3. <333

I Threw It All Away, With Everything To Gain.

Woo.

Another SO exciting day. =p

I didn't do much of anything...cleaned up the house a little. It was raining again. A depressing rain, not a fun rain. And because of the rain it was playing with my sinuses and making my face hurt. =/ So lot's of tyenol. How fun.

I haven't done anything in Bright Eyes... I'm working on a different story for the moment. One I've been playing around with for a quite a while and really want to at least get a start on. It doesn't have a name yet, but I've been thinking about it a lot, trying to figure something else.

I finished Breaking Dawn again, and started Twilight for the third time. =p It should be cool reading it again though, now that I know Edward's POV. Ahh, Midnight Sun. <3 I want it publishedddd.

=D

These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate.

Defintely a more exciting title then my day.

=p

I did pretty much nothing today.

Sheik was adorable tonight. He actually came over to me and wanted attention. Aww. <333 I also gave him some apples which he LOVED, and scratched his neck for a while which he also loved. I'm so excited about his training. I've already decided to take him to some NEOSHA shows next fall, for his first real riding classes. They have the best varity of classes, like a green class and WP w/t. So it's defintely a good place to start him out at. =D

So that's really about it. lol.

I'll be around if I'm everrrrr neeeded.

So.

Today.

Not to much to say, I guess.

I spent most of they doing nothing. lol.

Then at four I went to the courthouse [told Travis that "I didn't know I'd won champion DIARY goat." the look on his face was completely priceless. XD And he told me to bring them in and they'd have them fixed for me.] for our 4H health rocks training. It was pretty cool...there were six of us, but there's gonna be eight all together, four teams. Me and Rendi are on a team. And we did some cool actvitys, all of which relate to not doing drugs or how they effect your life, that sorta thing. And we got pizza. XD Our first thing is in October, at Rendi's school, to the fifth and sixth graders. So that should be intersting...

I worked on Bright Eyes this morning, got about half a chapter done. I'm going to keep working on it, but I've also started another book at the moment, which is still nameless.

=D

Summer turned to winter, and the snow it turned to rain, and the rain it turned to tears upon your face.

Back from fair!

Woo.

What a week.

Or rather, what a three days! XD

Sososososo much to say. lol. I don't know where to start, though I guess Thursday would be the best place to start. XD

So. Thursday. I get up, get dressed, feed animals, take a shower, get dressed again, put a whole bunch of show crap in the truck and put all my horse show stuff into the living room so I can get it later, help catch the goats, load them in the trailer and take them over to the fairgrounds. Get our pens that we get every year, the ones right by the door with a nice breeze and get the stalls ready, put the goats in, say hello to a few people, check in our photos and stuff, and go home, Dad's here, we eat somthing real quick, catch Brandy and trailer her over to the fairgrounds. I washed her while I was there, since it had been raining the day before and it was just the easiest thing to do. After that I walked her around in the sunshine until she was completely dry, brushed her out, sprayed show sheen all over her, used my little nose shaver thingy and got all her whiskers off, and tied her to the trailer and gave her some hay. I watched her for a while, then my mom did for a while while I went with my friend. We went to find this paper we needed and got sent all over the place till we found it, then we got kidnapped by Meghan [along with Brady] and dragged to the HCE building to have our picture taken [me, Rendi, Brady and two other girls that are teen leaders but I don't know their names. lol] with this Oklahoma 4H cenntinal cake. And that took forever cause we had to wait for Brady to go get us some new batteries for the camera. But finally we got the pictures, and Rendi and I ran back to the barns, signed in for the horse show, changed into our show clothes and got the horses. I showed Brandy in showmanship and she was awesome. Did everything like she knew the course. She even pivoted! The judge told me when I was done that I'd had a clean round and we got first. =D
Rendi got second. =D Then my mom showed Brandy in WP, and they didn't do so well cause Brandy wouldn't lope in that arena [it's just to small] and then they did trail later on and won that. Brandy was AMAZING. She did the gate on the first try, and then went right over the bridge, did the course perfectly and even sidepassed! She was amazing!! After that we took her home and end of Thursdayyy.

So on to Friday we go. XD
Get up, get dressed, get more stuff to take over, go over, feed goats, bring them over to petting zoo, talk Brady into getting us a table and bring it over, set stuff up, and then I helped out while the kids came through. We had....five school groups or so, but most of them brought like three classes of little kids. XD So we did have a lot of kids. I had to leave halfway through to go do livestock judging. I was on the same time with Rendi, Brady and Baylee. And there were only four classes so we got it done in no time. lol. Then the rest of us, Rendi, Baylee, Brady, Tanner, Chase, Jacob and Becky all hung out i n the stands for a while. After that we helped at the petting zoo some more, watched the tractor competion, and did this go - kart thing, and mostly just hung out with everyone. Oh and I watched everyone do the rock wall. XD
Then I had to get my goats and show, which I did. I got two firsts, Grand champion and reserve. So I have two trophies [both of which say "Champion DIARY goat." how nice] and then I showed Wish in open classes and got a third place. After that I had like, three hours to kill until showmanship [very last class] so my parents went home to feed and such, and I went out to dinner at Pizza Hut with Abby and her mom, and then we came back and I sat in the cowbarn with Brady, Tanner and Brady's little brother. The four of us were sitting on buckets and just talking and making fun of each other. Probably one of my favorite parts of the day. XD
Finally Brady left and my mom came back, so we got dream out and I changed back into my good show clothes, and I got ready for showmanship. Everyone was pretty surprised that i was showing a dairy goat in meat showmanship. XD But that's where they put me sooo. XD It was a still a goat though! And I didn't win, but I was VERY close. I didn't move for the judge, just one time, when I was walking. And that cost me it, he told me. Bummer, But now I know what NOT to do next time, so that's good. And then the judge asked me if I wanted to sell Dream. XD I was lke...no. XD So after that we milked Dream, put her away and went home. End of Friday.

Saturday -
Same as the other mornings. XD Get dressed, feed, go over to fairgrounds, feed goats. I helped Anderya with her calf, and watched Brady show his heifers and do showmanship, which he won. It was kind of hilarous because the judge was like "He told me more then I ever wanted to know about the bull the heifer was bred too." And that's SO Brady. XD Then Rendi got there, but everyone else we knew went out to lunch, lol, so we just sat around for a while, and talked to Vicki and Anderya, Hannah and My mom. After that we spent a while hanging out with Brady and Tanner and Brady's little brother, and just kind sat around and talked and whatever. Then they released the animals and I helped my parents clean up and get the goats in the trailer, and they went home but I stayed. I worked for three hours after that, marking x's on people's hands for THREE HOURS, with purple sharpie to show that they had payed to get into the bull riding. That was fun, I guess. lol. I saw and talked to a lot of people I knew, and got to see a lot of what was going on, which was cool. But it was just so long. lol. This one guy was like "Is this an x? It's really crappy looking." And I was like "You stand here doing this for three hours and see how crappy your x's look." XD And then someone told him to be nice cause I was the bouncer and could make him pay again if I wanted. hahhahaha. But I did get a free ticket into the bull riding and I watched half of it in the annoucers box with Rendi and the other half with Abby. There was a really bad acccident, but I just don't feel like talking about it again...I just hope that he was okay. After that Abby brought me home. It was like...11. lol. and I went straight to bed. TIRED.

So onto today. I slept until ten...and I needed more sleep. XD I've been tired ALL day. It's gonna take me forever to sleep the last three days off. lol. But we went to the base, which was fun, and I got a bunch of random crap and chocolate. XD Funn. And we went out for lunch. We also got this awesome paint horse decal thing which we put on the tailgate of my truck. It's totally awesome looking, I love it.

Andddd I found out with my B-day/C-mas present is. In December Sheik is going to Pam's for his thirty days under saddle training!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! Finally! =D I'm really excited. It needs to be December now. XD I'll get to go over and help out with him a lot and I'll be riding my poneh by tthe new year! =DDD How awesome is that!!! XD

And for Bright Eyes. I started Part Two of the book a few days ago, but have been too busy to do anything on it. Today I did post Part One, all nineteen chapters on my book blog.

=D

So tireeddd.

This isn't nearly all of what happened today, but well I'm tired. lol. I'm falling asleep right here. So here ya go, *posted from another site...*

Well first of all I'm so freaking tired. Hot, tired sore and freaking sunburned. Like, I look like a boiled lobster. XD My shoulders, my neck, and face. Fun. XDI got there at like...8:30, no one I knew was there, so I fed the goats and we did the petting zoo and then Andreya and Hannah got there and helped for an hour or two and then I had to leave, to go do judging. I got to be with Butner, where all my friends are. =D I got to be on the FFA team. lol. And we sucked. Baylee, who was on a diff team, got second overall and Tanner got first overall. So then Brady, Baylee, Rendi and Chase and Tanner and who knows all sat around adn goofed off. Fun. XD And then Rendi and I went back to the petting zoo to help and we did that for...about two hours, and finally everyone stopped coming, so we sat down and talked to Abby for a while, then went over to watch the tractor driving. Brady was really good at it, but he's the only of us that was did it. XD He got second though. =[ We were all surprised, we thought he won. But that's how I got sunburned. And then they had this like, DUI thing, where you put on these googles and do this pattern on a go-kart, and I mostly just watched, because I didn't want to do it, cause I know I'd suck, but they ALL forced me, even the people running it, to do it. and I knocked over every single cone. XD And I was like "I told you so." XD but I stood in teh sun watching my friends do it for like, two hours. XD Then I got bored...and my Dad brought me lunch, and I kinda just walked around adn talked to whoever. lol. And then they had a rockwall so I watched all of my friends do that, cause there was NO way I was doing it. No way. XD I also got to help move some stuff around and stuff like that. Then I had to go show, so I changed and got my goats out, and Anderya, Baylee and Rendi and Chase I think we were all arguing about who got to show my goat if I need help. XD And then everyone left me, except for BRady and Anderya, and then BRady left me, so Anderya got to help. lol. And Brady's little brother asked "Is that a goat?" And Brady's like "Why do people ask that? I mean, it looks like a goat! What do they think it is?" XD I got grand champion and reserve champon, and they are these hugee trophies. Then I really wanted to do showmanship, which was THE last class of the day, so my mom and dad went home, left me with Abby, we went out to pizza hut for dinner, she came back and was leavign, so she 'left me' with her Mom, and she kinda left me, so I went over and sat down with Brady and Tanner and Brady's little brother in the cow barn. We were all sitting on buckets and making fun of each other. That was probably like, one of the most fun parts of the day. XD Then Brady left and my mom showed up to come help me and take me home when the class was over. I guess she had found Abby's mom first, adn she's like "..where's Katie?" and she's like "Oh, she's over talking to all the cow showers." hahaha and my mom's like "Greatttt." XD Then I showed in showmanship, talked to this one guy, cause like, I was showing a dairy goat in it, and everyone else had meat goats. So we were talking about that a lilttle, then showed...and like, I lost because I didn't move for the judge at one little spot. The judge was like "you did a GREAT JOB, but you forgot to move there." Bummer. XD He also aksed me if I wanted to sell my goat. XD That was kind of funny. Annnnd then we came home. lol.Oh, and I did win my showmanship class. I left right after trail, cause my parents do not like to stay for anything, and I had no one to stay with and bring me home, cause everyone else had horses or where already gone, and they did a champion class, and they called me up! lol, and Daryel, my friend's dad went up and was like "but Katie didn't win." And I guess what happened is they mixed up me and the other girl, cause her name is Kasey. So she actually got last. So I won...I just don't have a ribbon to show for it.

Bannnerrrrr.

Hmmm.

Burn Out Bright from Oh! Gravity. And that's Tim. <3





So...today. First of all I am tired and sore and this is the first time I've sat down all day.

We took the goats over, and got them stalled, and then entered our photos and other projects, and stuck around for a while, talking to people. Then I came back later with Brandy, washed her while I was there, and the show, which right now, I jsut don't really want to talk about it. It wasn't bad, I just, feel discouraged. Amazingly enough I'm about to do exactly what I did last year after the horse show at the fair and that's take a hot shower, curl up in bed and probably cry. It's stupid, I know, but it's just hard, NEVER winning. Ughh. Even when I do an amaing job, I still don't win. Figure that one out. =// Even my mom won with her, first show in like, 30 years. I've showed six times this year and nothing. I'm glad for my mom, really, but it doesn't make it any easier. -sigh-



Other then that...not much to say really, unless I want to get into every little detail, which I might do later, but not tonight. Tomorrow will be better. Hopefully. =]

Fair Tomorrow! =D

Another Productive day.

I worked on my project board the majority of the day. Fun fun. I hate doing them. XDD I finished the middle of it, which is basically "Why grooming" and it lists why people groom their horses, and has a picture of a grooming kit. Then I had to cut out all the letters for the title and paste them on. It came out cute, I guess. I'll try to get some pics soon.

Then I matted all my photography pictures onto their cardboard mattings. 8 pictures. All quite nice. I should get a couple first ribbons, as usual.

Also, I think I've decided not to show Sheik tomorrow...if it's gorgeous out tomorrow, I might, but if it's raining, no, I'm just not going to do it. It'll be a lot easier to just take Brandy. I especially don't feel like spending an hour and a half out in the rain trying to get him to load, besides the fact that there will be no earthly way to get him clean. So we'll just see what happens tomorrow. -shrugs- If I don't show him tomorrow, I'm gonna show him next month at NEOSHA. Better show anyway.

Bright Eyes is coming along decently. I'm working on Chapter 15. Five more chapters till I can finally start part two. Yes, I'm dying to start part two. lol. I can only stay focused on something for so long, and I cannot wait to be able to move on a little, and start the next part of the book.
I also have an idea of more of an action based story that I plan on starting as soon as I'm finished with Bright Eyes. =]

Other then that....Wish me luck tomorrow at the fair!!!!!! =D

Today's siggy. Gooooo Oh! Gravity!!! =D

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Today Is Ours Condemned To Be Free

Quite the productive day, I think.

I stayed up till...1:30 or so last night, feel asleep in the middle of reading Breaking Dawn. I like it a little more this time... Reading Midnight Sun was really good I think, because I feel like I know more of who Edward is, and can imagine how he is feeling more. And heh, I love Jacob. <3

So hence the staying up so late/falling asleep reading, I didn't get up until 11 today. lol. Whoops. But it's all good. I got up, went outside, caught Sheik, brought him up, feed him, and clipped him. He was decent. I did his feet, ears, bridle path, chin and nose. Quite the handsome boy.

And I got to finish the painting. I wish I'd taken a picture, but I didn't think too. Anyway, I had ALL the lettering today. I started out tracing up honestly that was more work then it was worth so I did it all freehand. =D They turned out pretty nice I think. Then I got to paint them all in. I was home alone when I did it, standing outside, using the tailgate of the truck so I could stand up and not sit in the grass with bugs. XD I took my Mp3 player out and sang really loudly to Switchoot while I did it! XD It was fun. Oh the joys of living out in the middle of no where, where NO one can hear you. =D And it was sunny with a nice breeze. I got sunburned though. Eh.

After that I came in, cleaned up all the brushes and all that fun stuff and took a shower to get rid of all the paint and so I could wash my hair. And then my mom dropped me off for the teenleaders meeting. There were seven of us. Four girls I don't know, and then me, Rendi and Brady. The three of us were paired up for this project about what we thought a teenleader looked like. O.o Okay then. So they complained they couldn't draw. So I drew a stick person. They laughed at me. Then we drew a barn, and a horse, and some kids. Stick kids. So then we got up, and had to introduce ourselves, and then talk about our posterish thing. Which Brady clammed up and said nothing. hahaha. I was like "ANIMALS AND KIDS." hahahaha. I have no idea.

Then we started cutting out clovers, or at least, Rendi and I did while Brady stood around with his ipod and annoyed us. Oh yes, that's Brady for you. =D But I have to say, even if he is annoying he is freaking hilarous. So we didn't really mind to much.

We put lot's of glitter on our clovers, and then Rendi had to leave. So then it started POURING and the roof started leaking so Brady and I moved some buckets and stuff around to catch the water. Then he left, and I helped hang some banners and then I left. My Dad picked me up and we went out to Sonic for ice cream.

Fun day. =D

Today's siggy. Wooo!


From The Beautiful Letdown.

Wake Me Up When September Ends

Woo!! Goodbye and Hellooooo September. Ahh fall. You've finally arrived. <33


Having said that...I think today was the hottest it's been all year. Ugh. It was SO humid [probably because of the 6 - 24 inches of rain we are supposed to get this week!]
This morning I brought up both horses, and were planning on taking both of them to the fairgrounds, but I decided it was just easier to take Brandy. So I loaded Sheik up, fed him his breakfast, unloaded him and turned him back out. Good pratice for loading.
Then I loaded up Brandy, who I freakin' LOVE, and she walked right into the trailer like she'd done it every single day of her 15 - Ohh she's almost 16! - years. -Dies- Ahh, it was awesome.
So then we got to the fairgrounds, unloaded her walked her around, tacked her up and did some riding. She went right over the bridge like it was nothing [several times] and we did the gate about 10 times and she did it about four times. x] She was awesome. I'm so proud of her, she was just amazing. She also did some sidepasses! Awesome. =D

After that we came home and chilled cause it was HOT.

I'm working on Bright Eyes now. Chapter...fourteen, I think. XD At Chapter twenty I intended to have part one wrapped up and moved on to four years later for part two. =D

Today's siggy -
Lyrics from This Is Home, from the Narina soundtrack. =D When they sang this song at the concert in Wyoming Jon was talking about it, and he said that his Dad used to read him and Tim the Narina books as bedtime stories, so when he wrote This Is Home he wanted it to be like a lullaby. Ahh, you gotta love Jon. <333

I Turn Everything Over

Last day of August. x] Yay. I'm ready for September. =]

Today was pretty slow...we didn't do much.

I worked on Bright Eyes a little. Finished Chapter thirteen. And I might write a little more tonight. It's coming along. I'm about to start part two of the book.

I spent most of my day finishing Eclipse and starting Breaking Dawn. I'm wondering if I even READ the end of Eclipse last time? lol, I must have been really distracted, because it felt like I was reading the ending for the first time. And omgg. I loved it so much more this time. I felt so bad for Jacob, I really wish she would have picked him...=[ Anyway. I read the first few chapters of Breaking Dawn. The beginning of it is really good. It's the rest of the book [mostly the last part] is blehh.

And we went out for ice cream tonight. That was fun. x]

Here's today's siggy...
Lyrics are from "Politicians" from their Nothing Is Sound album.

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I've Got A Plan To Lose It All

Hmmm. One day left in August. This time last month I was meeting SWITCHFOOT, after an amazing concert. Ahhh. <3333 Loveeeee them. Love them, love them, love them. If you hadn't already noticed. XD

Anyway. Today. It was extremely hot, like, in the late 90's. Pretty depressing for almost September. So we decided to go for a drive instead of working. We went to TSC for grain, and I got a new shirt that was on sale for $5. It's pretty cute, white with horses on it.

After that we drove around the city a while, seeing where my Dad's new job is gonna be. We did a little shopping, but not much. After that we went to our favorite chinese buffet and came home. It was pretty late when we got home.

It looked like it was going to rain and storm, while we were feeding, the sky was black and there was a ton of lightening and thundering in the distance, but none of it ever got to us. =/ Sad really, I was looking forward too it. Besides that, it felt like the sky was about to expolde, it was so humid. I really wanted that rain to cool things down. Oh well, maybe it will rain later.

I haven't done anything for Bright Eyes today, because I was gone, and I was having writers block. I think I know where to go from here though. =D I should hopefully get a good start on Chapter 12 tonight.

Here's today's siggy....

I LOVE IT. It's great. And it's Learning To Breathe,which is an amazing song. <33

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And he starts his engine, but he knows that he's missing gears

Wow. I had to admit I was a little surprised when I saw the date today. August 29th. Almost September. I'm excited. But it amazes me that August is almost over. In some ways it feels like it's been forever, in others it doesn't. Exactly a month ago I was in a Wyoming, having spent the day on a plane from Oklahoma, to Denver and then to Oklahoma. That was definitely the best vacation ever, but now it's time to move on, to look towards the future and what is hopefully going to be a great fall. I love fall, I always have. Maybe because I was born in fall, and always had a birthday to look forward, but I don't know, I've always loved the trees changing into beautiful shades of red, orange and yellow, and then falling down to the ground in the cool wind. I love walking through the fallen leaves and hearing them crunch under my feet. I love the smell in the air...it's just, in my opinion, the best time of the year. I'm excited for it to come again. =] I'm almost excited to have to start a wearing jacket again! Summer, or at least the heat, has definitely been around too long.

Today we went shopping...nothing to exciting. It was a hot. And my SF did not ship. =/ It's getting a little ridiculous, really. I want to get some more SF stuff for my birthday/Christmas but I can't say I'm really very excited about the idea of having to deal with band farm again...but if I do ask for some SF I'm going to warn my parents that they need to order this stuff VERY early.

I mostly spent the rest of the day reading Midnight Sun. Which is Twilight in Edward's POV. SMeyer posted the first 264 pages on her website today. I guess it had been leaked illegally [okay, so I actually knew that before it happened, I heard some people talking about how they'd read the first 6 chapters online a few days ago]. Anyway I guess SMeyer knows who leaked it, because she only gave a few people her half finished book, and all of them different versions because she was changing it. And now she's put the writing of the book on hold indefinitely. Eh.

But she did post the first 12 chapters on her website, so we could all read it legally. Slightly cruel in my opinion, let us read it and want more only to know there might never be more.
And I LOVED it. Ughh. Edward's POV is amazing, MUCH more intersting then Bella's, and I feel like I know Edward a lot better now, and I like him a lot more. Really in Twilight, and in New Moon and Eclipse [Breaking Dawn they hardly mention Edward, it seems like], I don't feel like you ever 'really' know who Edward is, other then that he's completely in love with Bella, ridiculously overprotective, and can have quite the temper. Oh and that he's Utterly attractive. It was definitely nice to know there's more to him. Anyway, Midnight Sun was awesome and I hope she decides to write more, finish the book and get it published.

Having said that...I hardly wrote any of Bright Eyes today, because of course I was reading Midnight Sun all day. However I think that was the best thing for my muse. I needed a break, especially since the writers block was starting to set in, and this seemed to give me more excitement, and inspiration to keep writing, and also to write better then ever. =D

Today's siggy -
I love it a lot. =D Pictures are from Lonely Nation, but the lyrics are from Faust, Midas And Myself, one of the most awesome SF songs ever, off of Oh! Gravity.

So...really I guess that's about all for today. lol. Not to much thrilling going on...the fair is a little less then a week now and tomorrow we might take Brandy over to the fairground to ride, but I don't know yet. We'll see what happens.

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New Look. =D

I'm really happy with the blog's new look. I really love that picture of Jon. It makes me all fangirly. :D He's really very adorable there. <333 I also added the lyrics from "Sooner Or Later" which is one of my favorite SF songs ever. It's just...amazing. So amazing. I love it. I will listen to it over and over again. It just...idk. Ahhh. It amazes me constantly that Jon wrote all these songs. All of them, so profound and deep amazing and omggg. It just, amazes me. But that's just what makes Jon Foreman the most amazing person ever. End of story. So for today. Eh. My SF shirt did not ship. That does not make me very happy. Rawr. Buuuut tomorrow it will have been 10 days and if it's not shipped, I'm going call [*Coughoruhyaknowgetmomordadtodoitcough*] so we'll see what happens. I won't get it by Tuesday though, regardless. =[

And as for the horses, well they won't be ours. They are going to be auctioned off on September 15th, in a town over an hour away, so well, that dream died. It was a nice dream while it lasted though I guess. And that's really all I have to say about thiss....

...so. Moving on. I started my project board today. Or display board, whichever you'd like to call it. It's pretty cool so far. I have pictures of brushes along with how you use them, and what their purpose. I have some more work to do on it, but I'll have it done very easily before next Thursday. Woo! A week till fair! =D

I didn't do much else today...it was hot and gross outside and it was just one of those days. We did watch a movie called Saving Sarah Cain. I liked it a lot! There's a book as well, but I haven't read it. It was a really good movie though.

Bright Eyes hasn't come along much since yesterday though. lol. I finished Chapter ten and am re writing Chapter 11, cause it pretty much sucked. XD I should hopefully have it done or at least mostly done by tonight.

Today's siggy. =D It's very pretty. The lyrics are from 'The Setting Sun' off of their Nothing Is Sound album. Yay for NIS!

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Say what??

Mhmm. It's been a good day.

Let's start with Bright Eyes. One of my amazing friends made me an amazing cover for my hopefully amazing book. =D

*We don't own any of these pictures. We don't claim to own of these pictures.

http://i305.photobucket.com/albums/nn237/xRelentless/BrightEyes.png

http://i305.photobucket.com/albums/nn237/xRelentless/BEbackcover.jpg
Click on the links to make them bigger [so you can read it.]

Isn't it amzing? =D

As for the actual writing, I haven't gotten very far today. I'm mostly planning out things so I can keep going.

Onto other things...my SF shirt is finally packing. Yay! Hopefully it will be shipped out tomorrow. I hope so. I want itttt.

Today we went to the storee...I got all the stuff I will need for fair projects and also some pictures printed for photography. Now I just actually have to DO the work. How fun. I do need to get working on that though, considering it's a week till.

Now to the big news of the day...yesterday I told you all about those horses, well tonight when Dad came home for work and asked if we wanted to go to the fairgrounds and see them. So before dinner we went to the fairgrounds to see them. The sorrel is a major sweetie. He was whickering when he came over to us. He was letting us play with his ears and we lead him best we could [through a fence] just to get a feel for his attiude. He may need some work, but I think he'd be quite willing. He's a big sweetie and was thrilled when I was petting him.
He's obviously a quarter horse, and has fairly nice conformation. With a little cleaning up and possibly some training I think he'd make quite the nice show horse. So.
We are calling tomorrow to see about getting them. It'll depend on the price, but considering if they aren't gone by next Wenesday they have to be hauled to an auction, we have a good shot of getting them cheaply. Hope so. x]

And today's siggy -

I like it. It's nice, it's simple, it's SF!!!

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Only The Loosers Win, They've Got Nothing To Prove

Today's siggy! I like it a lot. The songs are from 'The Loser' off of their 'New Way To Be Human' CD. It's a very good song. x]

So. Today. Well, actually, let's start with last night.

So it's almost one am, and I'm reading Eclispe, figuring I'd finish the chapter and go to bed. Well, I'm probably, three pages of when suddenly I hear my horse whinning outside my window. And then hoofbeats, running. So this is very odd. I never hear him whinny like this. So being a normal horse mom, I can't just stay inside and think "Oh, well, he'll still be okay in the morning." nope. Instead I get up, go into the living room. My parents were already up, having heard it as well. So the three of us walk out onto the porch. He's running around, whinning, Tango answering him. That's all well and dandy, but where is Brandy? [no ryhme intended]. Sooo. We get on boots, grab the flashlight and with all four dogs [because Heaven forbid they should let us go somewhere alone, we'd surely manage to kill ourselves] and walk down the hill in the darkness.
All four horses are there, Brandy having come over when she'd seen the light. So. Well, it was a good adventure, I suppose.

Now today....I spent most of the morning working on Bright Eyes. It's coming along quite well, and I made a blog for it, because, well, I felt like it. I finished Chapter Eight, and am a few sentences away from finishing Chapter Nine. It's coming along quite nicely. I'm happy.

We worked with the horses this afternoon. They did really good. Sheik was a little lazy, but all in all, a very nice workout. I think we will be doing quite well for the fair. =D

Tonight was the fairboard meeting. We almost always go, because we end up having a pretty big partin the fair, and well it's nice to know what's going on and to know 'the officals'. Tonight's meeting was pretty fun though, because my friend was there. We talked about what we need to bring for the fair, ie, a fan, a radio, LOT'S of CD's. XD She's also coming over this weekend to help me finish our painting for the fair. I went over to help her do it last year, so I guess we will be even.

Also at the fairboard, when we were walking around the fairgrounds we found there's two abadoned horses staying there. A pretty sorrel gelding and a POA pony that is quite adorable. I guess someone turned them out because they didn't want to feed them or something, and they are staying there in case someone claimed them. They have to be gone by the fair though, so they are going to be selling them. The one guy said they'd be lucky to get $20 for each of them. Sad what our horse market has come too.

In other news...I guess that's all. lol.

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The Plot Of Your Life?

Today was quite boring, really. It was sunny, but we really didn't do anything. lol.

I realized just a few minutes ago [cause I haven't payed attention to the date in...weeks,] that today is me and Sheik's two year annversary! It's been a long two years and we've come a long way from the half wild, barely halter broken yearling that I, a fourteen year old, found myself owning. Well, he was supposed to be my Dad's, but well, that just didn't work out. It's really amazing, to know that just two short years ago he was still this wild baby, and now, he's here, my sweetie. He's three and huge and gorgeous and has been to five shows [soon to be six], can walk and trot in hand, set up, back up, load in a trailer, be clipped, be bathed, will wear a saddle and bridle. =] Hopefully by next year I'll be looking back about how far he's coming again, and I'll be riding hime. =D

Love you baby. <33

Let's see...I made cookies today. My two time champion Peanut Butter finger cookies. They turned out really well, even despite the lack of chocolate chips. Yummm.

I've gotten part of Chapter 8 done on Bright Eyes. But it's going to be a long chapter I think, so I may or may not finish it tonight. Hopefully I will. I got one of my friends to make me a cover. =D I haven't seen it yet, but I know it will be awesome.

So speaking of writing, I was thinking tonight, as I was waiting for the horses to come in from the pasture, and talking to my mom, watching our silly puppies playing, about how I'd write it, if I was writing our conversation. What would I add? What I would I take away? I finally conculded that it would be a very boring random book 99% of the time. And then I wondered, why? Well, the random part explains it's self, but the rest of it. What would make it so boring? And I finally realized it would be the lack of a plot. Books are based around plots, around a certain event, or a relationship or something. With a plot a book is simply random rambling conversations and nothingness. Which frankly, no one would want to read. A plot is what draw's people in and keeps their intersts until the very last page. So this lead to another thought. What is the plot of my life? It's an intersting question really, quite the deep one, it involved a lot of thinking. I finally decided the plot of my life is growing up, becoming the person I am supposed to be, getting a career, getting married, having children, etc. It's all part of the plot. Unlike a book it's a short part of a person's life, a few months, maybe a few years. Nope, it's my entire life. One big book about me, about my life, and the plot is simply growing up, I guess. So maybe it's not something someone else would want to read, but hey, it's my life. XD

And today's siggy is....

Lyrics from The Beautiful Letdown again. =] I love that song.

Well, I think that's all for today.

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