[boredom]

gah. so ready for this week to be overrrrr. it's been so boring. so very, very boring. andddd i am SO sick of my world history book it's not fun. i hatehatehate it. and i usually like history. or at least i usually don't mind it. ew.

so i got my 'script' for the 4H banquet. omgomg. it's like, super long and me and todd, who did the whole thing last year with abby [and i thought wasn't in 4h anymore? i don't know, he looked like he was a senior in high school three years ago when i met him.] are opening the whole thing! omgomg. we have this page long thing about the history of birthdays [the theme is the 100th birthday of 4h] blehhh. i seriously hope they don't expect me to memorize all of it. i'm also presenting an award with rendi and another one with paige. it's going to be some night. and i'm just hoping that my dress doesn't look too fancy. i don't want to be the only one all dressed up. blehhh. toomuchstress. i want it to be overrrrr. now.

so i played with my guitar today. yes i'm going to try to be better about it and play for at least a half an hour a day. we'll see how that goes. anyway i can play three chords, A, E and D. i can't do a preggresion yet, i'm way to slow. and my fingers hurt so bad afterwards.

&& my lovely little poneh cut his face. rawr. it's got a three inch cut from his forelock to his eye. buuut he just scraped the hair off, so it's not too bad. i hope it heals up quickly...like before next saturday.

It Froze.

ew. last night we had the first frost of the year. usually that doesn't happen till november, but i guess it is pretty close to november. but still. ehh. it warmed up though, it was probably in the fifties today. which isn't too bad. i guess we probably won't have any more of those ninty degree days anymore. and i guess i won't really miss them. this year wasn't that bad at all though, it never really got that hot. at least no 118 days.

so. aside from the normal stuff [feeding, school, etc] i didn't do a whole lot today. cleaned out the house a little, helped with dinner. and i made fudge. ohh yess, fudgeee. i got one of those awesome kit things that comes with everything and is super easy to make. it's funn too. i like baking, or at least, eating what i bake. XD and then dad surprised us and brought home ice cream, so i had lot's of chocolate today. yum.

so tomorrow i'm gonna feed sheik in the horse trailer, i guess. not really looking forward to this, but ehh. i have to do it if i want to take him to neosha show in two weeks. however, it he can't be that bad after dealing with brandy.

Love Remembers

huh. well i don't want to talk about yesterday, even though that's probably what i should be talking about. =/

so we'll just move on to today...i guess. so we went to town...to subway, for lunch. eric && i ate while mom got her haircut && we went to the mall. i looked all over for shoes, but everything was ugly or expensive. so idk. the dinner and everything is in a week. there's a pair of heels that are pretty cheap and would look good with my dress, but i think it would be just too fancy and look too formal. but i don't really know what else to wear. bleh. i also went to aero and got a new hoodie and a really cute shirt that was on sale.

so right now sheik is out by himself. i would rather him be in with easter, but tango would probably freak out if we put him out alone, so i guess sheikers has to stay turned out by himself. i feel bad for him, he hates being alone. he loves other horses so much and he stops in front of the gate and just stares at the horse trailer like he's waiting for brandy to finally get out of the trailer. he seemed better today, but idk. i wish there was someone i could turn him out with, or better yet that tango wasn't such an idiot about being with other geldings and i could just turn out all three of them. that would be perfect. but i guess there's not much chance of that.

Life Is A Runaway Train You Can't Wait To Jump On.

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RIP Drew, my cute little puppy.

You were way to young, && way to much of a sweetie for this to happen. I'll always love you baby.

Rawr.

so. when you own horses, it's inevitable. you will, for sure, come onto the oh-so-wonderful task of trailering. yes, it's fabulous. i mean what horse wouldn't just loooove to step into a dark four sided box that moves? it's terrifying, really. and just wonderful for the owner spending three hours convincing them that yes, they really DO have to get into the trailer. and that NO, it really isn't going to eat them. and it's a blast showing up three hours late for the vet. -.- ugh, it sounds horrible, but i'm not really all that sad to see brandy go home tomorrow. it's partly knowing that i'm still going to get to see her && ride her often, but we never clicked. with me and sheik it's like we were are perfect for each other. we understand each other, we like being around each other, we just click. and with brandy and me it's not like that. yeah we get along and work pretty well together when i ride her or do stuff with her. but it just doesn't go any further then that. if i go into the pasture she just ignores me unless i go catch her, and i don't know, it's hard to explain. but i think there's one perfect horse for every person, and the rest, even though they are special, they aren't quite the same. and i was lucky enough to find my perfect horse already, and we are going to be together for a very long time [the perks of having a three year old horsehh.]

so yes, in the end we made it to the vet [three hours late] they took her blood for a coggins test, and we brought her home and unloaded her. -.- the wonderful part is that i have to load her again tomorrow, to go the playday. gahh. i'm definitely looking forward to that.

that was basically my entire day, lol. we finally got home at four, and i pretty much had to go right out and feed them, since it was getting dark already. wish me luck for tomorrow.

This Road Never Seemed So Long.

rain. ugh. it poured most of the day, especially while we were out running errands. everytime we went into a store it started pouring just in time for us to be walking in/out. it was also windy and cold. bleh. i don't have a great jacket so it was especially could for me. i was so not prepared for it to decide to get cold all of the sudden like this. bleh. i was enjoying our nice october weather. and i don't really expect it to come back, at this point. i mean it is october, it should be cold. living here has spoiled me so much. i mean just four years ago i was still living in MI and it would have been cold for that last month at least. it would be pratically getting ready to snow by now. i should be grateful that it's been so warm this long. i mean on monday i wore shorts and a tank top and it was so nice and warm. i just wish it hadn't rained. blehh. and mom did say that we could go to areo either this week or next week, for sure, and that'll be cool. i can finally get a warmer coat. yayys.

ohh && yes, a new look. i used a picture that i took this spring, and softened it a bit to make it blurry. the colors are all orginal though, and then i used those as the other colors. i love that picture. =] speaking of which i need to get out there and take some photography pictures again. i haven't taken any in a while.

well that's about all today. it was pretty boring, really. especially with the rain.

You're Every Note, You're Every Word. You're Everything.

so i'm thinking about a new look. i'll probably wait till november to change it, do like a new theme every month sort of thing. that would be pretty sweet. i dont know if i could wait that long. not that i don't love my layout right now, i just like making new ones. i'm not sure what i want for a new look though, so i guess i'll have to think about this for a little while, at least. maybe i'll do a twilight theme or something, in honor of the twilight movie coming out in november. or maybe do something thanksgiving-ish. that could be cool as well. i just don't know.

so, i've been working on my book escape. it's a big part of me, really, since i've been working on it since january. ten months and so many versions/drafts later, i do feel like i'm finally get somewhere. it's amazing reading my first draft now, because i have such a better grasp of the characters and story line now. it's really a hard book to read, because there's so much emotion to capture, and i hope that the reader will catch that emotion. it's a hard task and hopefully i will live up too it. writing is such a strong part of me now. when i'm not writing i'm thinking about the characters and the storyline and what i want to happen next. i would love to be a writer, but i'm afraid that if i had to do it for work, i would loose the joy of it. it's like a line from hope floats 'the american dream. we find something we love and beat it to death trying to figure out how to make more money doing it, until we finally can't remember why we loved it in the first place.' i think that is so true. how many careers do people start out loving and end up despising when it becomes work? i would never want that to happen to my writing.

so today was eh. not much to say really, not much i feel like getting into either. i did go to the extension office to get my 4H picture taken. i hope it turned out good. i guess i'll know november third.

i was thinking about getting a switchfoot hoodie, all the girl ones are only left in 'small.' and that would be too small for me. so i was considering a men's small...but i've been asking around and they all say that it is pretty big. and since it is a lot of money, i think i'm gonna skip on it. i really would love a switchfoot hoodie though. blehh. that would be amazing. i need a hoodie of some sort, at least. the only one i have i don't really care for much anymore, and it's not very warm either.

Since Your Paper Heart Quit Beating

sorry about the lack of posts the last two days. i got home really late and was so tired. back to friday the blazers won! in a shootout, but they still won. that was pretty awesome.

and last night i watched the movie 'august rush'. if you haven't seen it, you need too. it's amazing. i can't explain it, it's just amazing. i loved it. ahh.

today i basically did nothing, so i'm mostly going to talk about what's coming up this week cause i'm pretty excited for most it.

tomorrow is horseclub. nothing too exciting about that, but yeah. and then tuesday i am having my picture taken for 4h...eh, sort of looking forward to this. i don't usually look very good in photos. XD and then there's the whole hair/make-up stuff which sounds like such a blast. eww.

saturday is the last playday, and also my last day with brandy. after the playday she is going home with pam, and staying there. i'm going home with them too, and then to sorgham days and maybe their school carnival.

and i found a horse show! the eighth. yay.

I Was Counting On Forever.

not too much today. we went to town to get an oil change, but their computers were down and wouldn't be up for 2-3 more hours, so we gave up on that. we'll do it someday soon. lol. we got a 12-pack of soda for the horse club clinic this weekend, and we saw a few members from horse club and talked to them for a few minutes, then we went home.

i didn't do much else...i'm feeling much better, my cold is pretty much gone except for a cough. i think the cough is going to linger for quite a while. bleh. i did play with the puppies. they are so freaking adorable. we brought them outside and they were running and hopping and playing with each other. they love people. they crawl all over your lap and cry if you don't pet them. we decided that puppies couldn't get any cuter. it's impossible. especially when they look at you with those cute little eyes and their smooshed little faces. it's amazing.

so that's basically it. lol. tomorrow we are going to the okc blazers season opener. sweet. =]

Life Is Not What I Thought I Was Twenty Four Hours Ago

it rained. all night. pretty hard too. when my 'rents woke me up at seven am [rawr.] it was pouring and it was cold. i had to use my jacket again. last week was the first time i wore it this year and now i'm wearing it all the time! it's supposed to be pretty cold tomorrow too. i need to wash my jacket actually, it probably smells pretty horsey, since i wore it during the playday.

so we stopped at mcdonalds. their sprite machine didn't work. [rawr?] all it did was have some sprite syrup. so i had sprite flavored rootbeer. wonderful. and once we had our hashbrowns [the only decent mcdonalds breakfast] we headed to the base. for the second time this week. we had our i.d. cards redone, since they'd expired. thankfully [and amazingly!] there was no waiting so we got it done right away. and my picture turned out amazing. pretty awesome. after that we went into the exchange, then to aldi, then to khols and finally came home. it was still raining.

the internet was down so we watched some tv and finally went out to dinner to carl's jr. when we came back the internet was back up and i feed the horses and we came in and watched tv.

i got a box from my aunt today. it was a pretty big box, from see's candy, which, fyi is the most amazing candy in the entire world. in this huge box all there was one box of molasses chips! lol. but they are amazing. =] the card said 'happy birthday with sympanthy!' so it was to my mom and me, sympanthy for my great aunt. rip.

tomorrow...nothing is going on. but i'm sleeping in! =D

Seventeen Candles

the candles are purely metaphorical, because i didn't have any candles. lol. but anyway, yes, i am seventeen years old. i've been on this earth for exactly seventeen years. that's a long time, if you think about it. and it's been a long seventeen years. XD i'm happy to be seventeen though. i hope it will be a good year. we'll just have to see though.

so today we went shopping. i was looking for shoes to match my new dress. which was hard. i really want/wanted brown flats, but they only had one pair of brown shoes, and they were heels and i couldn't walk in them to save my life. well actually, not walking in them is saving my life. XD anyway, so i got a pair of white sandals that are really cute and were on sale for five dollars. you can't beat that and they do look really cute with the dress. i also got a pair of beaded tan heels that are really pretty and i haven't wanted for a long time. and i got darius ruckers cd, which i have listened to once. it's pretty great. i like ittt.

i had cheesecake instead of birthday cake. cause i'm weird and don't really like cake. i'd much rather have cheesecake and it tasted great. =]] yay for cheesecake. and everyone sang and all that. i also had a few ecards and phone calls and a lot of facebook comments! lol. so all in all pretty cool birthday. =] i'm also getting taylor swift's new album and blake shelton's new album when they come out in novemeber.

tomorrow we are going to the base...again. to get our id cards redone. how fun.

this is also the four year annivsary of us moving into our house. i remember it pretty well. we had moved here in september and had been living in a camper, four people and three dogs. lol. we were so happy to move into the house and decided to do it on my birthday. lol. anyway, four years is the longest i've ever lived in one place.

Sixteen

i'm a wreck. at least when it comes to medical health this week. blehhh. i'm almost all better cold/cough/stuffy nose wise, but now my ear hurts! ear infection. lucky me. i'm hoping i can treat it at home and not have to go to the doctor. bleh.

today was okay. i didn't feel all that terrfic this morning, but it improved as the day went on. we went to crest foods to get something for dinner, and their computers were down so we were there forever. then we went to the othodontist. we watched bee movie today. lol. when i checked in, the computer said 'birthday countdown; one day!' lol. that was different, but cool. i didn't get any new wires, just new colors and a check up. i got green and purple. and i only have to wear my rubber bands at night. yayy. even though i was pretty much doing that anyway. lolz. that's a secret so, shhhh! and when i was leaving they gave me a birthday card that everyone had signed. aww. afterwards we went to mcdonalds for a chocolate shake and came home. i had just enough time to grab my stuff before heading to teen leaders. which only one other person showed up for. we still got a lot done though, i think.

and tonight was heroes. =]] it's gotten insane. ando? no. =[ i hope he's not really dead, but it does look that way. how could hiro do such a terrible thing? interesting about the last few minutes though! it'll be interesting to see how this plays out...but hopefully it won't get to weird. it's starting to pull a 'lost'. i love lost, but it's confusing enough keeping up with that, i don't need to do it with heroes too.

so. this is my last day as a sixteen year old. forever. pretty scaryy, really. so i figured i'd take a few minutes to talk about it. first of all, i know i've done a lot of maturing this year, mentally and physically. i was looking at pictures from just last year, and i look so different, so much older. i don't look like that little kid anymore. it's partly the hair, but still. XD but just remembering last year, i feel like i've matured a lot since then. sixteen was a good year. i had fun. i didn't do anything all that special, but it was a good year. i think i've passed the worse of the growing older/teenager thing, and am hopefully moving on to bigger and better things/times. we'll just have to see, i guess. =]]

so. my last post as a sixteen year old. =]

And If I Don't Belong Who Would Have Guessed It?

well todayy. it's october 12th. sweet. have i mentioned that october is my favorite month? even though this year doesn't feel much like fall. there's leaves on the ground, but the trees aren't changing colors this year, just turning brown and falling off. disappointing. and it's still pretty warm out too. this week it's going to be in the seventies, which is an improvement, really.

we went out to my birthday dinner tonight. to ihop. it was pretty cool. the food was yummy. i got one of those chicken strip baskets and when the waiter gave me my food on a plate he said 'i couldn't find any of those baskets.' which was random, but a few minutes later we heard him in the kitchen fighting with someone about how they couldn't find them and were supposed to use them or something. eric and i got a very good laugh out of that one. and no one used the dreaded 'b' word, which is a big no-no at dinner. people singing at resturants = not good. dying of embarrassment isn't really how i want to spend my birthday.

after that we went to the mall. and i looked for a dress. and i found one! first dress i looked at. lol. i saw it on the sale rack and knew it was perfect. it's white with brown trim and an empire waist. and it has blue and brown flowers on it. it was dressy enough but still cute and casual and hey, it was on sale! 75 percent off of already marked down prices. you can't beat that. you just can't. and it was my size! i tried it on and came back out so mom and dad could see it. they debated over it for a while, but we couldn't find anything else that wasn't ugly or extremely expensive, and when i had a few people come over and tell me it looked really good on me and that kind of sealed the deal. so a beautiful dress for $17.45. oh yess. because it's brown i have to get shoes [i only have black] but that's okay, since we saved so much on the dress. find a cute pair of brown flats/low heels and i'm good to go! =D

so yeah, that was pretty much today. tomorrow i have the othodontist [ohhh joy] and then teen leaders.

See You Make Your Way Through The Crowd And Say Hello

ooh another 'love story' blog title. go mee.

so. today. i did actually feel pretty good. my cough was terrible, but i survived. and i didn't get home and crash on the sofa exhausted. so woo. all is good.

i didn't find a dress. they didn't really have any and they didn't have any good ones. so that leaves me at square one. but i'm gonna go to penny's tomorrow, probably, and i'll hopefully be able to find something there. -crossesfingers.- we'll just have to see what happens.

tomorrow is my b-day dinner. sweetness. ihop. fruitcrepes. yummers. speaking of food i got my bag of halloween candy. yeah, when i was seven [ooh i remember the right year, go me!] we decided we weren't going to celebrate halloween anymore. it's not just the ghosts and witches and everything, it's how halloween orginated and what it really stands for [besides candy and spending a ton of money on costumes] and we just decided that it wasn't something we wanted to be a part of. however, at the time me and my brother were like 'what about the candy?' so every year we got to pick out our own bag of candy, whatever kind we wanted. we haven't actually done this for a while now, two or three years, i think. but of the blue today dad told me and eric to 'pick out our bag of candy'. hey, who argues with that. i got pumkin peppermint patties. they have orange filling inside. ohh yesss. very awesomeness.

so yeah, that's today. lol.

Baby Just Say Yes. <3

so. well. i didn't do much today, i'm still sick. but feeling much better. so that's nice. i did play with the puppies today. mom and i brought them outside onto the lawn and we just sat out there with them. they are almost four weeks and about the most adorable things you've ever seen. they crawled all over our laps and their mama, susie. we had a blast playing with them and finally we put them back and they all were exhuasted. awws. three of them have names so far. drew, my little brown cutie. he's the leader of the 'pack'. it's adorable. really. then my adorableeee little precious. i might not stick with that name, but for right now it fits. and then tank. he's a hugeee little white puppy. hugee. and so cute. i'll try to get pics of them soon. very soon.

tomorrow we are going to the base. hopefully i'll feel better. i plan on taking some strong cold medicine before hand and bringing tissues. XD i'm gonna do some dress shopping while i'm there. how did this happen? i'll have two wear that dress twice before the end of the year!! once to the 4h end of the year/achivement banquet, since they decided to go all 'dressy' on me. and i have to look good since i'm the outgoing sr. hall of fame and quite possibly about to be the ingoing, as well. and us teen leaders have to present the awards, so yes, lot's of me. and lot's of pictures. going in the paper. i have to look cute. yes. then my dear brother has a thing for his national guard unit, they have a very nice christmas dinner apparently, so i'll get to wear it there as well. so basically that means a very cute dress that i actually like. oh joy. -dies- and omg shoes, let's not even go there. i'm hoping that my black flats or something will work with whatever i get. they probably won't though. bleh. on the upside we'll probably go out to chinese [love!].

sunday we are going out to my bday dinner. ihop, i chose. why? fruit crepe fever! ohhh yesss. yum. we went last year and wanted some, but they were all out! so hopefully we will finally get to have some. and tuesday is my actual bday. yep, seventeen. that's exciting, though, somewhat depressing as well. scary as heck to think this time next year i'll be sitting here preparing for my eighteenth birthday. omg.

speaking of omg [first of all everyone needs to log onto youtube and post a comment, using their 'audio preview' it's hilarous! especially if you type in omg.
and the sourse of my omg.
twilight.

omg. the final trailer was released yesterday. while you are on youtube type in 'final twilight trailer'.

pure love.

it's amazing.

Terrible.

first off...i'm sick. and that sucks. i haven't done anything in two days but i am feeling a bit better, so hopefully i'll be up and about in a few days. hopefully.

so, today was pretty much terrible. I don't really feel like going into details..it's just too hard. so i'll leave it with this rip aunt jaqui and carter.

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it's not too late, it's never too late.

the farrier came today. had easter and tango's feet done. both of them were really good. even tango.

after they left i rode brandy. i rode her on the lunge line. she doesn't really lunge, but i wanted to be able to pratice sitting her trot and my form and everything, which i can't really do in our pasture, because i'm concentrating on where she's going/stepping, etc. and she got the hang of it really fast. i did a ton of walk/trot work. she doesn't walk in a complete circle, just a half circle. lol, so that was interesting, to say that least. i'm doing much better sitting her trot though, so it was all worth it. i intend to do it again on friday, before the next playday. my goal is be loping confidently by the end of the month, so i need to start working on that.

and heyyy, it's october first! awesomeness. i love october. it's always been my favorite month. maybe because it's my birthday month [14 days until my 17th birthday] but i think i would love it even if it wasn't. i've always loved fall. i love the leaves changing colors, and the smell in the air, the cooler and shorter days. it's all just awesome. I also love how fall is a transition month. next month we will be making pumpkin pies and wearing long sleeve shirts, waitng for thanksgiving. and then december, when things turn really cold and we wait for snow, talk about mistletoe and set up Christmas trees. there's people buying Christmas gifts and brightly colored wrapping paper. all of it's just amazing, i love this time of year. it's the best.

after riding, i went into town to the 4H office and got my state record book back, along with my 4H projects that went to the state fair, and me and rendi worked on our health rocks! project, which we are presenting tomorrow. so we'll see how that goes. i'm a little scared, but not really. at least not yet. i tend not to freak out about things too badly. usually at least. XD